This weeks incredibly tragic news has effected many of us in many ways. The senselessness of it all, and the thought of how quickly and randomly it can all change. Even if you do everything right in life. There is always some crap head out there. Some strange just wrong place wrong time thing happening. Both good and bad. So I have reflected a lot and found this small insight.
I have been dealing with anxiety of the past 2 years, not sure when that started happening, but one thing is for sure, it never ever happens on one of my boats. It might have something to do with owning 4 Wood Classic boats. Or Two Companies. Or the simple fact that looming ahead is the possible end of a work life I LOVE. HA. Believe it or not, writing this stuff every day helps, and of course is part of the hell. Not fear, or what am I gonna write about. But more about being out there and exposed as a person. Like this article. What the hell am I thinking? But here is the thing, if it helps someone out there, and maybe helps someone find Classic Boating as a passion, it’s worth it.
I noticed when I was out on one of my boats with The Boatress even on a slow run, I felt calm for the rest of the day. Even when crap happens. I adopted a Point Of View that crap going wrong is all part of the passion. It’s the entire thing, the boat is only part of it, the history, the culture, the art, the faults and joy are the true heroes in the story. The emotion, the people, all of it. If it was just about the Machine I would have given up the day I started this 12 years ago this month. YUP! 12 years.
Think about it, when you break down, or some crap happens I have found that it’s happened over and over again, its all part of the living history we are living in the NOW. And that was the breakthrough for me. If I focus on THE NOW, the very second I am living in. Not in the future, or the past, but RIGHT NOW, life just pauses and calms down. Because I can control most of that moment. I can turn the wheel, increase or better yet decrease speed. Right now. NOW in fact is the only true thing. Time is a man made thing. And the good news, when you are out on your woody boat, NOW is the time, you should focus on. Does it really matter where you are going? Or where you have been? Set yourself free and go boating! Okay maybe not right now. You have a job to do and deadlines and asses to kiss. See, the NOW doesnt last very long. UGH, but it sure was nice to float there for a second.
For those interested in going to see the Turcotte family – Friends may call on Joe’s family from 4 to 8 p.m. TODAY – Wednesday, Oct. 2, at Barton-McDermott Funeral Home, Inc., 9 Pine St., Chestertown.
A Mass of Christian burial will be celebrated at 11 a.m. Thursday, Oct 3, at St. Isaac Jogues Catholic Church, Church Street and Riverside Drive, Chestertown.